Oct. 17th 2014

Today, I can't wait to die, nothing for me in this life
 No matter how hard I try, I can't do anything right
 Yeah, and I'm all out of time (I'm all out of time)
 It's too late to try (it's too late to try)
 So baby, kill me slowly (slowly), however you like (however you like)
 However you like (however you like)
 Is this a dream? Got my hand on the handle
 Perks in my bloodstream, I just took a handful
 I don't remember how I got here
 It doesn't matter how I got here
 All I can see is the gun on the table
 Fall on my face, call your phone while I'm able
 I don't remember how I got here
 But it doesn't matter how I got here
 Flashbacks to days that I thought were repressed
 I fucked up again, yeah, that's what I do best
 Just trying to fill up this hole in my chest
 But she don't understand what I mean by depressed
 And I'd tell you I hated you if it were true
 I'd tell you I loved you if you loved me too
 But I'm on the edge now, I know it's too late
 I already know, I was just a mistake
 I can't wait to die, nothing for me in this life
 No matter how hard I try, I can't do anything right
 Yeah-yeah, and I'm all out of time, yeah, it's too late to try
 So baby, kill me slowly
 Yeah, yeah
 I don't know how to put this in words, the way this burns
 Silver lining is that I'm blessed with a curse
 With this anger that I know I deserve
 Or am I swerving on the people that I love
 'Cause I'm 17 and already missed my turn?
 And I didn't learn a thing from this
 Except what it's like to be buzzing
 With a trigger finger dying to scratch an itch
 And I feel like such a bitch
 Now, my girl is pissed because I'm back on the pharms
 Singing love from her lips, and writing hate on her arms
 So I say, "Fuck it, I'm done," and I try to get away
 But I don't get very far, and there's nowhere to stay
 And now I'm writing these bars, 'cause I've got so much to say
 So my words will live on, even when I fade away
 And I can't wait to die, nothing for me in this life
 No matter how hard I try, I can't do anything right
 It's all in my head, I think I'm better off dead
 So, can you please tell me, why?