Meaningless

Once I was wicked and filled up with rage
 But now I'm just tired and gray
 It all was a joke and I laughed in your face
 It's not so funny today
 It's not so funny today
 Stand by the window and cover your eyes
 I don't want you seeing me age
 Every story, it must end in tears
 When you reach the final page
 We have reached the final page
 Is everything as meaningless as it seems?
 I hope not, but I fear it is
 Oh honey, I fear it is
 Never before had I missed someone close
 As much as I missed you that night
 My heart it was cold and dead in my chest
 You cursed it and brought it to life
 You brought the monster to life
 The secrets I've learned in this solitude
 I'll take with me to the grave
 I hope that you know I love you the best
 Though I treated you just like a slave
 Though you were just a slave
 Is everything as meaningless as it seems?
 I hope not, but I fear it is
 Oh honey, I fear it is
 It's hard to believe, but long, long ago
 I was not bitter or blue
 I walked in the light, I slept through the night
 It's strange, but I swear it is true
 It's strange, but it is true
 Look, I am holding the head of a snake
 And walking alone down the road
 This is a moment I'll never forget
 It'll cheer me when I'm useless and old
 It'll cheer me when I am old
 Is everything as meaningless as it seems?
 I hope not, but I fear it is
 Oh honey, I know it is