Are You Afraid of God? No, But I'm Afraid of You

And it was cold in Essex County
 When the old sat there side by side
 Building tombs in the forms of houses
 Burying the rest of Old Joe's mind
 And I can see him sitting
 Aging into the light
 Tucked into Someplace, Toronto
 Saying, "Why can't you be alive?"
 ♪
 And it got cold in Essex County
 When he sat next to his grave
 Screaming to nothing
 If he could have just one more day
 And all the drugs didn't help a thing
 But fill his knees with epic pain
 At that moment, he let out a smile
 Because at least he felt something
 ♪
 You wrote me off, I called it funny
 Too troublesome, too tongue in cheek
 I made friends with your distant presence
 But by myself, all I had was silence
 Your cozy glare turned my eyes bloodshot
 I missed you most when I could sleep
 ♪
 I know that my brother is
 Better than he thinks he is
 Maybe, we should call each other
 And I'll sit on top this train
 Spread myself out, open the holes in my head
 Spill out the contents of my brain
 Give them to Joe to bring him back from the dead
 ♪
 Give me another bottle, so I don't mash my teeth
 I won't be another animal, but maybe that's what I need
 Lord knows I've been tryin', but human ain't my thing
 Maybe all those pretty Ativan will feel better inside my skin
 ♪
 Lighting my lighter in my pocket, reminding me that I'm here
 Lighting my lighter in my pocket, reminding me that I'm here
 Lighting my lighter in my pocket, reminding me that I'm here
 (Am I imaginary, or is my voice not loud enough?)
 Lighting my lighter in my pocket, reminding me that I'm here
 (Am I imaginary, or is my voice not loud enough?)
 Am I imaginary, or is my voice not loud enough?
 Am I imaginary, or is my voice not loud enough?