Episode 1

Hi my name is mayowa akande and this is my so called life
 Where to start should I talk past
 Tales of a lad live fast
 Can't think cash go fast
 Same mistake now same place fam
 Remember when I Thought They care
 Now I know it's just stares
 World at large I'm speaking too
 Honestly maybe you
 Ain't even in a booth
 Reason I can speak the truth
 Overcoming uh past hear the lie in that
 Y u think I'm so trash
 Yea I know Trash facts
 Insecure bout being black
 Hear my story it's a laugh
 You know i never knew
 I have power over my life
 Sometimes I need a reminder
 Poison every lyric
 Get it off my spirit
 Yeah I'm trying to bear it
 Can't even hear it
 Get me mad
 That Rare ish
 Yea i'm calm
 I turn up quick
 Present time too old
 Did math scape show
 Drownin sea woes
 Caught between the road
 Didn't lived by a code
 I don't think of these as woes
 Now tryna fix a show 13 run we seasonal
 Thinking hard brain explode
 Got no time to unload
 Got too much a workload
 Had a plan it blowed
 Over stress it shows
 Make a list only pros
 I'm too hard on myself
 I seek perfection in myself and in others
 Overly critical a burden
 I want change change
 Easier said than done
 Words to describe my life
 Remember a knife
 Had it to my face
 Thought it my last day
 Maybe because she mad
 Probably my joke in class
 Wish I could forget everything
 I got a good memory
 Don't wanna remember things can't accept just anything
 Tragedy of a past
 Labeled outcast
 Never seem to finish task
 Despair my glass
 Another day failed class
 Pe never pass
 Future where I wanna be why you try to fawn on me
 Accused of being a wanna be
 Huh what you want from me
 You know I'm too hard on myself
 More than anyone should be
 I'm my worst critic
 I should be a cheerleader for myself
 I guess I never learned to love my self
 Knowing that
 Trying to fix that
 The real battle to move forward
 Stead of letting my past drag me down like it has for so long
 Now I know I know I have power
 Power over my life Power over my fate
 I can change my life
 For the better a brighter future a better tomorrow
 I didn't know I had power power over my life
 Power over my future
 Power to forgive
 Forgive myself
 Instead of hurt
 I'm tired of hurting myself
 When your so used to hurt
 You think there's nothing else
 It's sounds crazy
 Its like It's like I thought there was no other way
 I never knew I could better myself
 I never knew it was an option
 I'm coming to terms with it
 It's opened my eyes I see things in a different light I just want to hold on to it
 Wish you could live through my shoes
 See the things I've gone through
 how I see life unlike u
 No difference between us two
 You could tell we the same
 All we really want is change
 Better not think of its pain
 That's what drove me insane
 I will never ever take ur Lane
 I'm smiling even in the rain
 It's deeply rooted in my brain
 I don't even how to explain
 Positive on a crowded train
 That's how you know I'm tryna change
 Saw the error of all my ways
 I could see that ur not phased
 New chapter uh yeah my page
 Living life in a different way
 Stacking money all in this safe
 Got no time to be playing games
 Tell me how it feel to change
 Honestly I want the same
 Can't won't stay the same
 Happiness ain't from a chain came from right inside
 Yes yes I am that guy
 Honestly I ain't gonna lie
 So sad you gotta die remember all the times
 Stuff them house of lies
 Never gonna go inside
 Actually burn my pride
 Comfortable getting denied
 See me yea living life know you gotta pay the price
 Honestly forget a price
 I'm gon go change a life
 Yeah yeah I can't be that nice
 Yeah yeah see the change in life
 Yeah yeah it's amazing right
 You know i don't have a name for this yet
 I dont know what to call it
 Somethijng easy to remmeber like really easy
 Hmm ahh i got it call itepisode one