Beyond My Control

How've you been?
 Let's play pretend
 That we don't know that we both chose to go
 Find less decay
 I've spent some time
 Wondering how I'd end up
 If only I found the guts
 To make my peace
 It's too late to rewrite the story
 And I hate to be dilatory
 Stuck in my ways
 I'll admit I miss
 Feeling just like this
 When you said you'd always stay
 Take me back to when
 We were careless kids
 Making promises we'd break
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 If I lied
 I'd say I'm fine
 That I'm not sorry for anything
 You're not worth the baggage you bring
 I'm fine
 Can't find out what we're made of
 Just know it's insidious
 It's got me far down
 So I'll keep reading the story
 And relive all of the memories
 To ease the pain
 I'll admit I miss
 Feeling just like this
 When you said you'd always stay
 Take me back to when
 We were careless kids
 Making promises we'd break
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 You're what I wanted
 Despite you dragging me down
 I'll try to fight it
 But I don't really know how
 You're what I wanted
 Despite you dragging me down
 I'll try to fight it
 But I don't really know how
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 Whoa, whoa
 Things changed, but I don't wanna face it
 Gave up and now I'm left complacent
 Whoa, whoa
 My days all end in devastation
 I'm a wreck
 I'll admit I miss
 Feeling just like this
 When you said you'd always stay
 Take me back to when
 We were careless kids
 Making promises we'd break
 I swear I'm fine
 I swear I'm fine
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 I swear I'm fine