This Again

I be going through this again, through this again
 Quit for a week and I drink again, I drink again
 They flexing on their Instagram, their Instagram
 Go ahead, ask me if I give a damn, I don't give a damn
 'Cause I been tryna make it, make it, make it out
 But I'm losing my patience, patience, patience now
 There is no one that can save me, save me, save me now
 I'm something like an angel with no halo now
 And that's fuck up
 Though luck got me feeling like I'm losin' grip
 Or who's to say, I'm used to the stupid shit
 Fans say I'm on fire like my fuse is lit
 But all these fake ass rappers got you convinced, uh
 I'm feeling sea sick, no ocean
 Like fuck a remix, it's that dough shit
 Take my drink off the coast and I'm coastin'
 I'm closest to really being me when this Patron hits
 It so depending, got no potential
 I go so demented when I hold this pencil
 Like I wrote a letter to my older self
 And I told him don't make friends
 And do it all yourself
 But he won't listen
 He's busy making music for the sake of it
 Too worried 'bout a buzz and what they'll think of it
 He's just scared and unaware of what patience is
 I'm tryna make amends 'cause I was crazy then
 I be going through this again, through this again
 Quit for a week and I drink again, I drink again
 They flexing on their Instagram, their Instagram
 Go ahead, ask me if I give a damn, I don't give a damn
 And I ain't wanna take this, take this, take this route
 It's time for you to face it, face it, face it now
 They build you up to break you, break you, break you down
 So I love the fact they hate me, hate me, hate me now
 I got my face in my palm when I'm by myself
 Staring at the bottle like a shot might help
 I wasn't even at the table
 When the cards got dealt
 I can see my phone ringing, sorry not right now
 I got work to do
 They're sayin' Merk's the truth
 If you ain't heard the news then you should search the tube
 But I'm human, they forget that I'm a person too
 See you purchased yours
 I really earned my views, yah
 I been swimming in this water, and it's toxic
 I been feeling like a martyr in this mosh pit
 But I'm really like a mobster on some boss shit
 You're not chill, I'm smart
 I'm never caught up in the nonsense
 Fuck a blogger or a top-5 list
 Ray Charles in the ring
 You ain't got no hits
 Watch 'em climb to the top just to fall like bricks
 Next year I'll have a hundred thousand on my wrist, yo
 I be going through this again, through this again
 Quit for a week and I drink again, I drink again
 They flexing on their Instagram, their Instagram
 Go ahead, ask me if I give a damn, I don't give a damn
 'Cause I been tryna make it, make it, make it out
 But I'm losing my patience, patience, patience now
 There is no one that can save me, save me, save me now
 I'm something like an angel with no halo now
 I be going through this again, through this again
 Quit for a week and I drink again, I drink again
 They flexing on their Instagram, their Instagram
 Go ahead, ask me if I give a damn, I don't give a damn
 Leave me alone, I'm far too gone
 Don't call my phone
 I'm not at home