Self-Destructive

I don't wanna wait, I don't wanna wait
 But, I know that it's too soon
 I could run away, but I wanna stay
 So, I've gotta play it cool
 If only I had been the one to be your first
 But, knowing I was second only makes me hurt
 And every time you say her name it makes it worse
 So, maybe we should start
 We can't help it, If we want this
 I'll be selfish, I'll be self-destructive
 We can't help it, If we want this
 I'll be selfish, I'll be self-destructive
 I don't wanna wait, I don't wanna wait
 But, I know that it's too soon
 I could run away, but I wanna stay
 So, I'm gonna play it cool
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 If we never try, If we never try
 Then I guess we'll never know
 Lying to ourselves, promise not to tell
 It's out of our control
 If only I had been the one to be your first
 But, knowing I was second only makes me hurt
 And every time you say her name it makes it worse
 So, maybe we should start
 We can't help it, if we want this
 I'll be selfish, I'll be self-destructive
 We can't help it, if we want this
 I'll be selfish, I'll be self-destructive
 I don't wanna wait, I don't wanna wait
 But, I know that it's too soon
 I could run away, but I wanna stay
 So, I've gotta play it cool
 If only I had been the one to be your first
 But, knowing I was second only makes me hurt
 And every time you say her name it makes it worse
 So,maybe we should start
 We can't help it, if we want this
 I'll be selfish, I'll be self-destructive
 We can't help it, if we want this
 I'll be selfish, I'll be self-destructive
 I don't wanna wait, I don't wanna wait
 But, I know that it's too soon
 I could run away, but I wanna stay
 So, I've gotta play it cool
 I don't wanna wait, I don't wanna wait
 But, I know that it's too soon
 I could run away, but I wanna stay
 So, I've gotta play it cool