sincerly, your son

Yeah, where do i start?
 Feel like i'm losing myself
 I know that i'm messed up inside
 But how am i wrong for refusing to help?
 I feel like i can't be fixed
 Maybe i'm stuck in the dark
 I just don't think that the pills can
 Fix all the pain in my heart
 So i guess it is pointless
 I lay in the dark in my sorrow
 Today i just gave it my all
 But there is not enough for tomorrow
 'Cause i'm tired of the pain, i'm tired of fightin'
 Tell me just what it is worth
 To give my all to these people for me to be selfless
 Just to be filled with this hurt
 What is thе point?
 'Cause i just cannot see anymore
 I feel like thеre is no point in living my life
 'cause
 I'm just not me anymore
 And they say
 it's gets better
 But it's been forever
 So i just don't think i believe it
 It properly get better when time,
 But now i won't be here to see it
 But pls don't me mad
 It's not that i'm weak i'm just tired
 I wish that my heart wasn't broken,
 'cause then i could work on my mind
 But life isn't fair i know
 And not being happy is killin' me
 I try to be vocal, they listen
 But i don't think that y'all are hearing me
 I hate that i'm broken, i hate that i'm stupid
 I hate that i feel like a mistake
 I hate when i'm talking to God
 I feel like he don't listen to the times when i pray
 I hate that i look in the mirror and
 i hate the man lookin' back
 I hate that i'm so insecure
 I just wish you'd understand
 Mama if you listen, please don't be mad
 I know what i'm doing ain't right
 Your son isn't perfect
 I'm not a fighter, i want you to know that i tried
 I want you to know that i love you
 But lately i don't feel like me
 It was nothing that you did, you did what you could
 There's something that is wrong with me
 Since i was young
 I've always felt like this
 I've never felt like i belonged
 And this ain't because
 I'm depressed, it's 'cause i feel so alone
 It's 'cause i feel like a burden
 I'm always living with grief
 I've always felt like the problem
 and that's why everyone leaves
 But really, i'm sorry
 I know that you wanted what's best for me
 The world has been takin' my soul
 But i leave you everything left in me
 I love you forever and always
 To the moment you know i'm gone
 That moment is sooner than later
 I love you, sincerely your son