Dying Light

Cutting every night to try to see what's inside
 The pain goes on while the color fades from your eyes
 I never asked for this, you fucking bitch
 And no matter what I do, nothing ever fucking changes
 I've tried to leave it all behind but still can't fucking shake it
 I peel back my skin just to find some fucking answers
 Just leave me alone so I can get better
 You can tell by the look in my eyes that I'm face to face with the void inside, and where I reside in this dying light is where I hold onto you
 I exist in two worlds but never really living in either
 I sleep in a noose, swinging between hate and fear
 Take a moment to remember the place (place)
 Broken heart, spilling out
 Still filled with hate
 It will never suffice
 I just want to let go of this life
 But if I do, all my memories of you are lost in time
 I replay the images
 Bleak, grey colored lenses
 Hollow to everything
 I'm sending up a flare
 I turn on myself
 It's too much to bear
 Excoriation disorder is the leading misorder to try to fix what isn't there
 In this dying light, I reside and I hold on to you
 But it doesn't change the fact that I can't move forward if I keep looking back
 And every fucking thing I do is only out of protest for losing you
 But it doesn't change the fact that I can't move forward if I don't swing back
 But if I let go, then all my memories of you will be lost in time
 In this dying light
 Cutting every night to try to see what's inside
 The pain goes on while the color fades from your eyes
 I hate most people
 The times when I
 I look at people and I see nothing worth liking