Memorandum

Sometimes, I wish everything would go away
 Just die, or cease to exist
 You can't see what's inside of me
 Lost from the fall
 Free from it all in the blink of an eye
 I die inside when I lie about the suffering I hide
 You never knew what I went through
 What is it inside me that feels so broken?
 I grit my teeth and say "it's all gonna be fine" but I know its not when I look myself in the mirror and I grit my teeth and lie and say that I'm okay when I know it's not
 It's all bullshit
 Worthless fucking cunt
 Lead to a dead end with a mirror in the ditch
 Lie to my face and say it's better in the end
 Last breath I take, won't give a fuck about a bitch
 Live in the past and die with empty answers
 I know I dont give a fuck about this but I'm out of excuses for why I'm like this
 What's the fucking use of explaining if no one's going to fucking understand this adolescent hate birthed in bunk beds
 Part of me can see and fight but I feel like I'm loosing sight
 Keep looking for that place to call home in the dead of the night
 Every night, I'm preparing for the day
 But I dont think I'll leave this life with much else to say
 I know I'm not gonna make it
 I know I don't give a fuck about the life that I'm going to leave behind
 An endless circle
 Only to find out that home is not what's in sight
 Everything I put myself through was for fucking nothing
 Just a bad taste in my mouth
 Always looking for something
 Sometimes, I wish every thing would go away
 Just die, or cease to exist
 You can't see what's inside of me
 Bite down on the 9
 Squeeze and make my world a better place
 It's all so fucking self-indulgent
 Staring in the mirror like I'm waiting for my lines
 What is it inside me that feels so broken?
 A void in time I fell in or the void inside?
 It's all so fucking self-indulgent
 Staring in the mirror like I'm waiting for my lines
 What is it inside me that feels so broken?
 A void in time I fell in or the void inside?