Bad Luck

Today's the day I tell the truth
 I'm on a ledge and yes I swear that this is quite the view
 If I could jump I think I'd touch the sky and fly away
 But if I fall and lose it all, well there's not much to say
 I mean I guess I can say I tried, right?
 But I said I wouldn't lie
 And I haven't to the truth in a pretty long time
 Fuck, life's catching up
 And I'm running full speed
 But I'm never running fast enough
 Damn, I guess I had bad luck
 Maybe 'cause my lack of trust
 Maybe that lack of trust
 Is why I push people away
 I get afraid and start acting up
 Call that bad luck, I guess I had bad luck
 Life didn't pan out when we both ran out
 Then we both found out that we had bad luck
 Call that bad luck, I guess we had bad luck
 Yeah, we had bad luck
 Oh I can see the breaking of your heart
 Let the light shine in to save you from the dark
 You gotta keep your head up
 Cuz things will get better, I know
 You're so close to letting go
 See I'm conflicted, I don't know if there's a God or there isn't
 But if I find out that there is, shit, I hope he's indifferent
 Man I just hope that he'll listen
 I hope that he'll listen
 I hope these bridges that I've burned don't weigh into his decision
 See he'd get to tripping ask me why I didn't care more
 But I'd turn around I'd ask him
 Why it seems he was never there more for
 Me and my four brothers, two sisters, six different mothers
 I know the church tells me you do, but do you really love us?
 Or did we have bad luck? I guess we had bad luck
 Life didn't pan out when our dad ran out
 And we all found out that we had bad luck, fuck
 Call that bad luck, guess we had bad luck, yeah
 See it's 4 a.m. on a weekday
 And I swear I've been awake for a week straight
 I don't wanna sleep in the bed I made
 'Cause I'm afraid that I'll never wanna wake
 Maybe I complain too much instead of changing
 I can try and say it didn't phase me
 I'd be lying if I said there weren't days that passed
 When I asked the Lord to come take me
 I swear I'm not crazy
 He never answered me anyway
 So I pick up the pen to tell a story again till the end
 Like a nigga got the last name Hemingway
 What's the end anyway?
 Oh I can see the breaking of your heart
 Let the light shine in to save you from the dark
 You gotta keep your head up
 Cuz things will get better, I know
 You're so close to letting go