Big Stars

It's not stimulating
 He likes celebrating
 I had that sort of heart once
 Now I still have more to lose than you
 Do you - do you go
 To meet their highest fullest
 I can only love
 And move toward everyone
 I learned what I could
 About mistrust and
 About truth in the erotic
 And how it hurts so much, and
 I know why you left
 I know where I stand
 Still I sit in front
 Still I raise my hand
 Ok, I'm finally damaged
 Ok, I'm finally willing to talk
 When threatened with love or arrest
 I've been occupied
 Through the moon in Taurus
 I never noticed big stars
 Just blonde hair so far
 That I found in our bed
 You couldn't deal before
 I'm so glad you're back
 And it makes sense
 You're still, I'm stubborn
 And it felt shallow
 My needing time outside of time
 You said the look on my face
 Was one of permanent sadness
 No, nothing that sexy
 I'm not afraid of losing time
 Just worried about missing out
 It's weirder to stay alive