ruin

I hold an uncomfortable shape
 A child dreaming of the day
 That she will escape
 I know of a secret place
 And I know someday I will get there
 I'll meet you on the way
 I don't know what has kept me going
 But I can see it
 Disfigured by the haunted days
 It flickers in the warm confusion
 A ruin of the dream
 To get away
 To feel safe
 Falling through the world
 Falling through the world
 Falling through the world
 Toward a better place
 And though abjection self-sustains
 I realize something has changed
 Behind the pain
 And on the grass beside the lake
 I realize that place is here now
 I can see it in your face
 And though we still feel so much pain
 And there is terror in the future
 We're together for today
 We recognize that we are falling
 And nothing slows us down
 But we can keep each other safe
 For now
 The terror of the loss of contact
 Reduces me to this
 But I can feel you
 Even though you're far away
 I know a place where we can recover
 It is familiar but unreal
 The air is clear
 There is warmth and color
 We can exist
 We can heal
 And though it hurts beyond description
 We all found each other
 We've built our own secret place
 Through all the fog and disconnection
 We let it cover us
 We hold each other so we know
 We've found home