nature

Fuck me, I'm a tidal wave 'bout to make the city fall down
 I'm clean 'til I'm pretty wasted
 'Cause you're getting wasted
 'Cause you're like that now
 I'm not sure anymore
 If I can make you turn around, open doors
 'Cause I don't like me when I'm acting out
 Living like a civil war
 But I want what I can, I can't help myself
 I'm selfish, in love, I love you too much
 I'm fucking this up
 But I can't hold it in
 So I say it out loud, it's loud in my head
 My head's ringing out, "I wanna be dead"
 But I can't do it, no I can't change a thing
 It's just my nature, I guess
 Like I wanna make sure that you hate me again
 And I'm not gonna fix it or pretend
 When it's just my nature
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 Sideways, like a sheet of rain
 Maybe I should straighten my mind
 Do things for the thrill of it
 Take a pill of it just to see if it works this time
 I'm not sure anymore
 If I can keep holding up what I forged up about me
 Train wreck, I still got it bad
 Hating that you made me like that
 But I want what I can, I can't help myself
 I'm selfish, in love, I love you too much
 I'm fucking this up
 But I can't hold it in
 'Cause it's loud in my head, I say it out loud
 It's all ringing out, "I wanna be proud"
 But I can't do it, yeah I can't change a thing
 It's just my nature again
 Like I wanna make sure that you hate me, I guess
 And I'm not gonna fix it or pretend
 When it's just my nature
 Yeah it's just my nature, no
 So I do it again, I'm playing it up
 And hating myself for letting me down
 Yeah how am I weaker than everyone else
 Telling me what's really in love
 'Cause you're fucking not and I can't get over it
 Taking the hit, I'm losing myself
 But still holding on 'cause funny enough
 You're all that I know that I want
 It's all that I know
 It's just my nature
 I wanna make sure that you hate me again
 And I'm not gonna fix it or pretend