Euthanasia

Spite-ridden and I'm losing composure
 My blood's thinning as I'm searching for closure
 I've had this dream before you're walking out the door and I
 Can't move my legs
 So here we go again it's 4am the hour that drags out
 The feeling I can't forget
 The heavy hands of the clock added to the weight of
 The epitaph
 They say that time heals all but now it's killing
 Everything And now I'm choking on the words that I never got to
 Say so I'll just sit here as I spit up my lungs this one's for
 You and it doesn't roll off the tongue
 I remember you said we'd pull through this together
 But you're not fucking here
 Longer than the night
 Colder than the dark
 In the black like a ghost you leave your mark
 I'll never see you again
 It's a story that I don't want to tell
 And all that's left is the loneliness
 In the empty space you left
 And your footsteps to follow
 I dropped the dirt that made you one with the earth
 Fading myself just to hide how much it hurt
 The noose you tied tighter and tighter
 You took your life and left me paralyzed
 The noose you tied tighter and tighter
 You closed your eyes
 But I hope that you still see me
 I'm trying so hard but you can't hear me
 And it kills me to know I may never see you again
 But you'll be with me until my last breath