Nexus

I've given up hope in a life
 I've given up most of my life
 I've given up hope in a life
 Where people could say I'm living it right
 I've given up most of my life
 To the hopes and the dreams once seemed so bright
 I've given up
 When they all burnout, in the end someday
 Gotta catch that heat, that is sent my way
 Anxious by night, feel these eyes glaze
 Feel peace by way of the piece I blaze
 (I've given up most of my life)
 Of the piece I blaze
 Please fuck off, Imma need my space
 (I've given up most of my life)
 In a king-sized cage
 Just found out, had to leave my race
 So I'm running and running and running and running
 But I don't even know if I could see the end coming
 And I don't even know if it would really mean something or nothing
 But one thing I do know, is we go along
 Til' these feelings are gone
 Til' nothing else matters and we all belong to the dirt
 Only thing real is a persons own work
 On his personal worth and it hurts
 When you look at the past and you cringe at the fact
 That those moments are gone and they not coming back
 And you feel like an ass, for believing in half
 Of the shit that you have, so you sit and rehash
 Instead of working on through
 But the truth is it's useless to do this, when you
 Keep on searching for worth in a perfect excuse
 I assure you, I'm learning to burn these issues
 I've given up hope in a life
 Where people could say I'm living it right
 I've given up most of my life
 To the hopes and the dreams once seemed so bright
 I've given up hope in a life
 Where people could say I'm living it right
 I've given up most of my life
 To the hopes and the dreams once seemed soo bright
 I've given up
 (I've given up)
 On everything I've ever started
 It's apart of every heartache
 Ripped apart at every thought I get disheartened, then discard it
 Unapologetic, with a fetish for the endless
 Inner sentence of repentance
 In a sense, it's innocent
 I never meant to be defensive but I lack the right incentive
 So (I've given up)
 What I used to be
 Pretending that I'm usually a class act, but I backtrack
 Til' given a moment to grasp at the world that I've been holdin'
 Getting molded to a last laugh
 (Most of my life)
 Steady stay dreamin', ain't sleepin'
 Days sneakin' by, vacant and high
 Is it a vacation or life?
 Face complacencies, lies
 At a pace that debases the patience inside
 (Most of my life)
 I've been seeing the reasons that I should be feeling alright
 But it's like I'm inside my own mind and it might just implode
 Couple nights in a row living like I don't know
 I've given up hope in a life
 Where people could say, I'm living it right
 Where people could say I'm living it right
 I've given up most of my life
 To the hopes and the dreams once seemed so bright
 I've given up