Nail Biter

I used to lie awake at night and question what my purpose is
 I never had my fingernails, I've always been a nervous kid
 Unhappy and I'm sure of it
 I'm never gonna change
 I barely scratch the surface when I pace the halls to clear my thoughts away
 I'm not okay
 And I'm starting to learn it in the hardest ways
 I've lost control of everything I ever had a hold of
 I'm letting go
 And I'm rid of the notion that I'll make it out
 It feels so far now
 Holding on but losing my grip
 I guess it's something I could learn to live with
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 I'm hoping it resolves itself and I've been waiting patiently
 I drink myself to sleep because I hate the pills my doctor gave me
 I am just a mess
 Submissive to the stress
 My mind feels like it's on a loop, I panic from the pressure in my head
 Don't get too close to me
 I'm about to go
 I'm about to break
 We're only seconds away
 I'm not okay
 And I'm starting to learn it in the hardest ways
 I've lost control of everything I ever had a hold of
 I'm letting go
 And I'm rid of the notion that I'll make it out
 It feels so far now
 Holding on but losing my grip
 I guess it's something I could learn to live with
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 I gotta keep it together
 I am losing my way (my way)
 I gotta try to get better
 Before I lose what's left of me (what's left of me)
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 I'm not okay
 And I'm starting to learn it in the hardest ways
 I've lost control of everything I ever had a hold of
 I'm letting go
 And I'm rid of the notion that I'll make it out
 It feels so far now
 Holding on but losing my grip
 I guess it's something I could learn to live with
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 My mind feels like it's on a loop, I panic from the pressure in my head