Past Tense (Acoustic)

Of course it rained on your funeral in the middle of winter. It doesn't make much since, but neither does any of this. The snow all melted and now I can't find you your footsteps coming up the driveway. I wanted to walk in them so I could pretend that I'm making all the decisions you would of wanted
 I'll sing this for now till I find the time to right everything down and figure everything out. I've got a lot to think about cause I don't know how to feel right now.
 And I've been sleeping in the basement watching
 TV. It helps me keep my mind of things. cause I can hardly sleep. Been waking up to nightmares all damn week. Been waking up to nightmares all damn week
 Don't tell me it gets better
 I know that it gets better-er
 Getting sick of the past tens and refferring to you in it
 Getting sick of the past tense
 I'll sing this for now till I find the time to right everything down and figure everything out. I've got a lot to think about cause I don't know how to feel right now.
 It's just so hard and everybody wants to talk about it, but I don't want to talk about it
 cause I keep seeing those eyes and I keep hearing those breaths avoiding all these words cause I creech when they come up in conversations
 And I just wanna be alone right now
 I just wanna be alone right now
 I just wanna be alone right
 Don't ask me how I'm doing cause I really just don't know right now