Always

And after all is said and done
 I know the problem's internal
 I know the symptoms like they're family
 And I can't fend them off
 But I'm learning to outlast and stand it
 Each time gets better and it feels like they're all losing their grip
 You can't just cover this up
 It knows you down to the cell
 It's left a mark on your tongue
 Can you taste it?
 There is a permanence here
 As much as knowing it hurts
 It's not what all of us want
 But this is coming to terms
 If this is coming to terms, I've got a clause of my own
 If this is coming to terms, why are its claws at my throat?
 If this is coming to terms, we're gonna pull through
 If this is coming to terms, we're starting with you
 It's getting simple
 I've got the reins in my hand
 It's never quite gone but not too strong to withstand
 And when I hold my breath, it's not denial of air
 It's not to drown in a void
 It's just a way to see clear
 You can't just cover this up
 It knows you down to the cell
 It's left a mark on your tongue
 Can you taste it?
 There is a permanence here
 As much as knowing it hurts
 It's not what all of us want
 But this is coming to terms
 Tragedy calls you home
 Let the trauma, depressive instincts expand where
 Tragedy makes its home
 In the weak, in the tired, in trembling hands
 Tragedy takes a toll
 Makes its cuts where it wants to because it can
 Tragedy never hold
 Tries so desperate to cling, find its purchase but can't
 You can't just cover this up
 It knows you down to the cell
 It's left a mark on your tongue
 Can you taste it?
 There is a permanence here
 As much as knowing it hurts
 It's not what all of us want
 But this is coming to terms