Silent Restraint

I see you all
 Beyond this pain
 I remain trapped
 With the monsters in my brain
 Please someone break through
 Silent restraint
 Wish I could write from the heart
 And tell you what's wrong
 And put this gnawing into words
 But the path is blocked
 By a wall of glass
 I scream and it just bounces back
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 I waste away
 
 As I wait and wait
 
 Just to smile again
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 So desperate for help
 That nothing helps
 I fail when I try to be my old self
 How do I fix it
 How do I get better
 Does anybody have an answer
 I'm sick of feeling like a burden
 I'm sick of having no control
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 I'm sick of always needing help
 I'm sick of being afraid of myself
 They say, they say
 They say, you will smile again
 You will smile again
 Not in the same way
 Not with the same joyful abandon
 There will be a barrier
 Between your lips and your eyes
 And you'll wonder if they notice
 The light that's fading over time
 You will smile again
 As you try to convince yourself it's real
 You will keep forcing it
 Until forcing it is all you remember how to feel
 You will smile again
 For the sake of them
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 It's just selflessness and depression
 Going hand in hand again
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 I see you all
 Beyond this pain
 But I remain trapped
 With the monsters in my brain
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 Please someone break through
 The silent restraint