At What Cost?

Balcony overlooking the city of Los Angeles, never felt this lovely
 Pacing back and forth for hours broke my peace anticipating don't let it budge me
 I pray they listen before they judge me
 Straight up I need to go in my own direction
 Make my own selections
 [?] it back with claims I'm turning my back on the homies who made it possible
 For you to have a voice who looked out with nobody stopping you
 Sure
 Sugar coated protected perception
 Don't want to break nobodies heart so [?] reflection
 I shed some guilty tears moments after Thanksgiving dinner with benivente rolling through Seaside
 No adventures for this loner
 Bringing it in 2015 with friends and coronas
 Newer resolutions to feel this endless persona
 Meanwhile
 A couple interesting plots are thickenin' among you
 Dinos back in the base
 San Diego was home I guess you got some choices to choose
 Blankets coming off the bed you made
 The voice isnt true
 They get to talkin' like you finished got some points you can prove
 But lose when you set the record straight
 Drunkin' nights in Studio City with Chip the Ripper
 But fuck am I really
 I broke it off with Cassandra
 Shit was getting to silly
 My mates from Oakland been growing impatient
 We've been at it for months
 Too busy acting my rapper fantasies in a bunch
 I started making rounds to Northern Cal this shit is wild
 Oakland International
 L.I.G attire construction Timberland boots, couldn't tell me I wasn't fashionable
 Damn
 Not to long ago when I was on board
 Snap-backs, Jordan's, and chains became the highest oh lord
 Hoping Logic's fans will like me on tour
 Searching Sylvan dropped and all I got was theories
 On how the industry moves and advice I never asked for
 A couple pointless meetings that fizzle with niggas [?] on the fence C step
 Talkin shit that I swore I would never forget
 Now them shoulderz is feeling stretched
 A couple rappers friends just stopped returning them texts
 He spoke to Skizzy since I wrote down and asked for a check
 I just thought it was all respect
 But you know
 Shout out to mickey too
 Thought we was brothers but ego just made this shit defuse
 It's funny when your mentors end up getting it misconstrue
 Was once with the thought of feeling accepted
 So breakdowns made me face the fear of rejection
 Some prophecies I've projected have manifested
 I was only trying to mesh wit'
 [?] the throne but my guess is that these times are changing I should get with the shift
 Made it back to Miami with grace
 Just in time to escape
 Whats Hollywood and [?] trapped inside this QuEST persona
 Too many expectations threatening Yoda
 Where does it end
 Sleepless nights [?] with my face in the mirror
 Mommas words of wisdom helping me seein' it clearer
 Nothing is destant better learn how to step in your full self
 I'm guessing I've been waitin' too long
 Don't want to get in God's way but he's been patient too long
 Down the Henny when the taste is too strong
 Asking questions that never mattered, distracting me from taking what's wrong
 Out of his misery my faith has been torn
 I reunited with pops
 He's still usin' but the hatred is gone
 Nigga family is family
 They say the key to harmony is to practice new understanding
 And I've been working on communication
 Many broken relationships done with losing patients
 A new sense of leadership man the crew has been waitin'
 These wise ones need direction my truth is the pavement
 Thinking bigger then ever
 I got to keep it together
 No time to treat this whatever
 Fuck them prior engagements
 I chose myself and still managed to dodge humiliation
 The interest in reconciliation
 Forgiveness
 That chip on that nigga shoulder still present
 Dont think that I've lost my hunger
 You gotta hear thunder to know a storm is coming
 For real
 This is Far from Familiar
 I came a long way from ignoring blessings
 Mamma in here interrupting recording sessions
 I used to think my mountain was to hard to climb
 But I just stepped up to the starting line
 For real
 Well, well, well, you made it this far didn't you?
 Alone you stood when it was highly advised not too
 Through the trenches you fought
 Though most, if not all, will doubt you
 You remember just in the nick of time
 God has a way of swooping in right before the last finger slips off the cliff
 Self was found
 In the most unfamiliar of circumstances
 You now know who you are
 You know where you're going
 God is still with you
 The benefits of your faith your shall reap
 When everyone question your [?]
 No longer ifs, nor when
 These notions have been tossed
 You are more then ready to attain everything your heart desires
 The question now
 Is at what cost?
 Far From Familiar