Farewell Wanderlust

"You look like I need a drink," he winked
 As he slipped from my grasp to the bar, "And you are?"
 He said, "Me?" (me), "Little me?" (little me)
 He called (he called) from the brink of the day (from the brink of the day)
 He said, "Hey, darling, hey, hey, darling, hey
 I'm the hardest goodbye that you'll ever have to say"
 You don't know it yet, but I'm the cupid of things
 That you just didn't get, that you struggled to say
 I'm the saint of the paint that was left in the pot
 I'm your angel ellipsis, your devil of dots
 Every time that you fumble, I'm the laugh from the back
 When you think about him, my wings start to flap
 When you make a mistake, my feet lift from the floor
 And when you lie there awake every night, love, I soar
 I promise you I'll be better
 I promise you I'll try
 But like rubbing wine stains into rugs, it's my curse
 To try and make it right, but by trying make it worse
 I'm the heartbreak that aches far too much to be shunned
 All those letters unsent and that garden ungrown
 I'm the captain of courage that you've eternally lacked
 I'm the Jesus of wishing to Christ he'll come back
 Because farewell wanderlust, you've been, oh, so kind
 You brought me to this party, but you left me here behind
 So long to the person you begged me to be
 She's down, she's dead
 Instead what is left but this old satin dress
 And the mess that you left
 When you told me that I wasn't right in the head
 "You alright?," asked the boys from beyond
 You gave us such a fright
 We'd hate to see your mascara drip into your pint
 Might you allow me to slip into something more comfortable then?
 Be our guest
 With a hoik of her bra, she waved to the bar, and slipped into the night
 "Come, devil, come," she sang, "Call out my name"
 Let's take this outside, 'cause we're one and the same
 Our gods have abandoned us, left us instead
 Take up arms, take my hand, let us waltz for the dead
 I'm the face that stares back when the screen goes to black
 When your mom says you look healthy
 But you know she means you got fat
 I'm the tales that the guests will applaud and believe
 I'm the child that you just didn't have time to conceive
 I promise you I'm not broken, I promise you there's more
 More to come, more to reach for, more to hurl at the door
 Goodbye to all my darkness, there's nothing here but light
 Adieu to all the faceless things that sleep with me at night
 This here is not makeup, it's a porcelain tomb
 And this here is not singing, I'm just screaming in tune
 Because farewell wanderlust, you've been ever so kind
 You brought me through this darkness, but you left me here behind
 And so long to the person you begged me to be
 He's down, he's dead
 Now take a good long look at what you've done to me
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 He's down, he's dead
 He's gone, oh, he's lost
 He's flown, he's fled
 Now take a good long look at what you've all done to me