The Calling

Back then, I was dauntless
 And dawn could never know
 And my weakness made me weep less
 Than I would ever show you
 I'd burn so bright it blinded
 Now I know that light guided me here
 I walked into the river
 To wring those embers from my broken heart and broken liver
 You'll never get your dinner if you don't learn how to get along
 And a fox somewhere is hiding
 That light I thought was blinding brought me here
 I look into the waters and see a face I don't understand
 We're both unwanted daughters
 But there's more than water in these autumn hands
 I look into the waters and see a face I don't recognize
 Who's this? (Who are you?)
 "What changed?" I ask
 "So strange," she replies
 Shoulder the sky (I can't wait to show you how much)
 Open those eyes (I know you can be, just let the rain come)
 There's a kind (let the rain come down, darling)
 (Can't you hear it howling?) Of calling, calling
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 Back then, I wasn't hopeful
 But now my ink's blood-red, not black
 And I'll blink like ripping envelopes
 In the hopes that you'll write back
 And on the banks of that river
 I shiver as a fox stands frozen
 And I close them, I close them, I close my eyes
 'Cause I'm between that just-one-more
 And drank-too-much-again
 And I promise you I'll write "I love you"
 With my fingers on your sleeping hand
 And when that fox howls, I'll howl with it
 In its cries I'll find an end
 And when I think I'm fine, you'll visit
 And then you happen to me, you happen to me all over again
 In the waters, I see a face I don't want to look back
 Do you like my dress? It's got pockets
 The rocks beneath my feet begin to crack
 Oh, I look into the waters, long ago that current caught us
 And we tried, I tried, I really fucking tried
 But the rain kept coming down, I watched that woman drown
 Shoulder the sky (I can't wait to show you how much)
 Open those eyes (I know you can be, just let the rain come)
 There's a kind (let the rain come down, darling)
 (Can't you hear it howling?) Of calling (calling), calling (calling)
 Shoulder the sky (I can't wait to show you how much)
 Open those eyes (I know you can be, just let the rain come)
 There's a kind (let the rain come down, darling)
 (Can't you hear it howling?) Of calling (calling), calling (calling)
 Shoulder the sky (I can't wait to show you how much)
 Open those eyes (I know you can be, just let the rain come)
 There's a kind (let the rain come down, darling)
 (Can't you hear it howling?) Of calling (calling), calling (calling)
 Shoulder the sky (I can't wait to show you how much)
 Open those eyes (I know you can be, just let the rain come)
 There's a kind (let the rain come down, darling)
 (Can't you hear it howling you? It's calling) of calling
 Calling in the rainfall