Sorry in Advance

I keep all my scars covered up, but every once in a while they open up
 and new stitches only hold up for so long, so it's pretty obvious that something's wrong
 Then for no reason my edges start to fray and I worry about driving you away
 and end up driving myself insane, then end up back at square one again
 But I've spent time to make sure I'm at peace with my own mind
 So I hope someday I won't regret that I didn't say
 That I'm sorry in advance for complicating things
 and even wondering why I'm watching you walk away
 or have to hear myself say
 that I'm sorry for this mess, and that I really tried my best
 but instead I'll fall asleep smiling with you next to me, my dear
 then wake up with you still here
 I won't forget about the promises I make
 or multiply the chances that I take
 or torture myself each and every day
 that these songs take me further away
 I won't do my best to avoid being awake
 I'll keep something in mind for my own sake
 That even though I can't quite see an end
 I know that soon I'll see you again
 I've learned from all my own mistakes
 so I won't hear myself say
 That I'm sorry in advance for complicating things
 or have to wonder why I'm watching you walk away
 I know I won't hear myself say
 that I've created a mess through failing to do my best
 There will be no reason to get depressed
 No need for sorries in advance, or at any point in time
 I'll just be patient and I hope you will be too
 and I promise that you won't see me walk away
 There will be no sense of decay
 You can fall asleep smiling then wake up in the morning aware
 that the smile is still there.