Surrey Dive

I'm just trying to pay an insurmountable debt
 Just trying to forget about my inevitable death
 Chris threw up in the diner, I was sick in the snow
 Got a self-destructive instinct constructive summer complex
 In the shadows of urban development I'll mark my footprints in wet cement
 Like the first man on some kind of temporary moon
 But I had to get out before I dove in Surrey Dive
 But I'm coming home tonight
 Can we hold on for a sec while I we cold sweat from my brow
 She said we might have met somewhere but that's all news to me now
 And hey look I achieved something
 Can we go back to bed?
 But I had to get out before I dove in Surrey Dive
 But I'm coming home tonight
 We used to be proud of each other
 We used to take care of each other
 I wanna make something without foundations built on bullshit and whatever
 The loudest person says cause it's never really right
 But the beating and the puffing up of chests
 Has beaten every argument I've had tonight
 Come on just punch me in the face so then at least you'll think you're right
 Maybe you'll leave our place
 Lose the war and win the fight and I'm
 Running scared from the house that I helped build
 So why don't you fuck off stop bringing hate into our lives
 Cause all we ever really wanted was to feel at home tonight