Breathing Like a Fish

I need a mantra
 I'm trying too hard
 I break the eggshell
 And some Russian dolls fall out
 Look into wanting
 Look deeper, still
 And you'll see the back of your head
 Looking down the filthy wishing well
 And I learned about my brain
 And, oh, it made me smarter
 I would break apart the eggshell
 I would fall into the water
 And I need a mantra
 I need something I can imitate
 Until I'm breathing like a fish
 Until the purple air is white
 And these hands have spokes inside them
 This body's branching
 See that I'm trying too hard
 Always landing, always landing
 So make me invisible
 To you and to others
 I've forgotten how to read
 I'm getting better
 And now I'm looking deeper
 I tossed a coin into the ocean
 As this well is drying up inside
 How these hands have spoken
 And I smash apart the Russian dolls
 And I'm all cut with slivers
 And my blood is breaching like a whale
 As the well dries up the rivers
 Your body is branching
 As I twist to eat the serpent's tail
 I'm trying too hard
 This joke just writes itself