Sanctuary

This used to be my sanctuary
 Now it is my hell
 I once came here for asylum
 From a pain I knew too well
 And I hate myself for saying this
 And for crying over you
 But it was not reckless abandon
 What transpired entre nous
 And now I'm stuck here with these memories
 And your scent all over me
 Can this still be my place of solace
 When I still feel your body's heat
 And the only thing I'm sure of
 Is this restless, burning need
 And this all too keen awareness
 Of a desire I can't feed
 Can you feel me like I feel you
 The heavy heartbeat, the trepid hands
 I hear you whisper when you're not speaking
 Feel your torture at your loss of command
 Silent echoes enter discreetly
 Soft surrenders breaking new ground
 I taste your teardrops when you're not crying
 Feel you with me when you're not around
 I want to wake up in the morning
 In your cast off collared shirt
 I want to be your place of safety
 And take away your hurt
 I have no other angle
 But to give you all of me
 And hope that in the end
 A sanctuary's what you'll see
 Can you feel me like I feel you
 The heavy heartbeat, the trepid hands
 I hear you whisper when you're not speaking
 Feel your torture at your loss of command
 Silent echoes enter discreetly
 Soft surrenders breaking new ground
 I taste your teardrops when you're not crying
 Feel you with me when you're not around