We Dare Not Say

It eats me up alive
 It's all consuming
 Long as I'm alive
 It's still there looming
 While I may try to seem
 Unassuming
 The cards are down
 Adrenaline junkie
 Strung out on drama
 Foolishly believes
 In a thing called karma
 Expecting retribution
 For past trauma
 That won't ever arrive
 And it won't be different this time
 All the things we dare not say
 The distractions that get in the way
 Of the pursuit of peace of mind
 Because I fall apart each time
 Why are there mistakes
 We keep on making
 Diminished self respect
 Ripe for the taking
 Aware of all the things
 I should be forsaking
 But can't let go
 Just let me get it out
 Straight up neurotic
 It's getting to the point
 Of borderline psychotic
 I just can't help but feel
 That stare's hypnotic
 And driving me insane
 And I wish I could refrain
 All the things we dare not say
 The distractions that get in the way
 Of the pursuit of peace of mind
 Because I fall apart each time
 Another whisper in my ear
 Reignites the fire
 Desperate for a way
 To dial back desire
 Obsession is a drug
 I need no supplier
 I've plenty on my own
 All the things we dare not say
 The distractions that get in the way
 Of the pursuit of peace of mind
 Because I fall apart each time