Dead Dogs

TOO DRUNK TO CONSENT
 I was too drunk to consent
 Andyoufuckedmeanyways
 Mouth sewn shut
 Mumbled that I fucked up
 But now it's a joke more than it ever was a crutch
 I wanted revenge for being made a cuck
 Why can't I speak up?
 Instead
 I self-destruct
 Incoherent and shaking
 Praying...
 Don't touch me
 GOD NO NEVER AGAIN
 Spilling words like drinks
 I can't handle the weight
 I feel the twist - the cuts on my feet
 Bleeding out everyone sees
 I'll be whatever they need
 THE AGONY AND SHAME
 WHATEVER MAMA NEEDS
 Fucked 'til I bleed
 Or cum
 What's the difference?
 They're tethered to the mindset of a
 DEAD
 MAN
 And everbody else is numb to the question
 "Am I too fucked in the head, to forgive - forget?"
 Didn't want it
 Didn't need it
 And it leaves me repeating
 Didn't want it but maybe I deserved it...
 DEATH
 Forever consumed
 In blacked-out memories
 Woke to see me in the mouth of the enemy
 Swallowing all of my worth
 D I R T
 A tattered empty canvas
 D I R T
 Now a slave to a sexual vice I didn't get to choose
 I NEVER HAD A FUCKING CHOICE
 Bottle in a cradle
 Child in a grave
 I killed the son in your name
 I still take the blame
 I always take the blame
 And it leaves me repeating
 That I'm disgusting; wrong
 But
 The fuck you 'gonna tell your parents
 When they find out you killed me?
 23
 I couldn't forgive you