Pain (t me)

Paint me any color you want i can't see anything
 Shift the weight through the empty space -
 The advantages they take
 Lately i've been thinking about leaving my mind
 It's already separate from my body -
 I don't need either
 I couldn't commit to my beliefs and neither they to me
 All evil people with no feeling
 But jealousy...
 Don't give a shit:
 Making out that we're sick
 Talk the talk but you know what you fucking did
 Malicious intent - feeding a hurt mindset
 Too drunk to contest...
 You're the one who's fucking sick
 But they drilled it into my brain that...
 I hate me when i'm sober
 I hate me when i'm not
 So I pick the one that makes me forget it
 I hate the way i feel
 Throbbing in the side of my neck,
 I can feel the pulse; the complete regret I called you friends
 FAKE
 And isn't it sick?
 You pushed a situation
 Shoved the alcohol down my throat -
 Spun the word, closed the door
 Fuck the way they want me to feel
 I won't anymore
 Counting down the days until they re-learn my name -
 They all talk about change and then remain the same
 Counting down the days until they re-learn my name -
 They all talk about change and then remain the same