A Slow Decay

Stick the needle in
 Run through my veins
 A momentary lapse
 No longer feel my pain
 The pressure is building
 Will I sink or swim?
 In a world that hates me
 A battle I'll never win
 Trying to escape
 Something I can't run from
 I'm holding myself back
 From feeling what's real
 Can't hide from myself
 Because I won't go away
 It's taking a toll
 As I slowly decay
 I look in the mirror
 Don't like what I see
 Maybe another hit
 Will help comfort me
 I'll close my eyes
 See what tomorrow brings...
 Open my eyes
 To start a new day
 I'll make things right
 Change my old ways
 But I can hardly breathe
 The stench suffocates me
 Confined by four walls
 Darkness surrounds me
 Is it too late to turn back
 And do things over from the start?
 Erase my past mistakes
 I deserve another chance
 But there's no turning back
 When it's all over.