Reflections

Don't know how to cope
 With these empty feelings
 Struggling in this world
 Life can be so hard
 Trying to make it through
 To keep my stability
 Lift my head out of the water
 But I'm drowning too fast
 I want to numb it all
 And still feel at the same time...
 Things could have been different
 If you tried a little harder
 You would still be here
 And we could work it out
 Correct the past mistakes
 Before it's too late
 Because everyday is worth living
 Can't change the past
 All I can do is learn
 I want to fight harder
 And I want to give up
 Drink until I can't think
 To forget the pain
 That will not leave me
 It's weighing me down
 Will not disappear
 But I am still stuck here...
 Try to take the pain away
 But I still want to feel
 Tomorrow will be a better day
 Even without you here
 No matter how hard it gets
 I'll try to crack a smile
 I'm still left with hope
 To do what's best for me
 Your laugh lingers in my mind
 As I hold on to your memory.