What If I?

I don't wanna leave you but I feel like
 The stars are saying I should
 On and off and I really can't remember
 The last time that this felt good
 Even if I ever found the courage to go
 You would pull me right back
 I'm hooked on this American feeling
 That I deserve more than I have
 A dream and a curse in the worst way
 The bleeding heart of my selfish thinking, but...
 Ooh what if I...
 Ooh what if I...
 Ooh what if I need you when you're out of reasons
 To believe I was ever worth your time
 Have mercy, leave me with a last dance
 Give me one more song
 You know I keep telling my friends something different
 Til' all the good reasons are gone
 There's no stone left that I haven't turned
 I can only see one door open, but...
 Ooh what if I...
 Ooh what if I...
 Ooh what if I need you when you're out of reasons
 To believe I was ever worth your time
 You make the lightest of rains, feel like a hurricane
 The best of what you are, is a fishing line dollar of a star
 I keep pushing down your roads
 Because the truth is that I don't know
 What I am without you, oh
 I can't stand outside the show
 Maybe that's just the way it goes
 Ooh what if I...
 Ooh what if I...
 Ooh what if I need you when you're out of reasons
 To believe I was ever worth your time