toxicity

For a second I thought I found someone true
 Then he left me for another girl that's nothing new
 And sometimes I get happy then I fail
 I swear if I keep living I'll be in jail
 Cause all these bad decisions
 They make me lose my vision
 Why do I have to be the one to lose?
 And why can't I be the one to choose
 To die?
 It's not fair
 I wish you were here
 Pain's when I'm stuck on you but you're not stuck on me
 And love's when you wanna give up 'cause you can hardly breathe
 And giving up was never an option but now I have no choice
 'Cause there won't be a you and me toxicity
 For a second I thought that it was real
 'Til I realized it's with you I just can't heal
 And sometimes I can't take it anymore
 And we'd fight like we're at war
 You said that I've been changing
 You even said I'm going crazy
 Why do you never even take the blame for once
 You left me to feel ashamed for months
 It's not fair
 But you don't care
 Pain's when I'm stuck on you but you're not stuck on me
 And love's when you wanna give up 'cause you can hardly breathe
 And giving up was never an option but now I have no choice
 'Cause there won't be a you and me toxicity
 No, there won't be a you and me toxicity