Vexation

With displeasure I appease you just to follow your lead
 I'm disgusted by my actions almost every day and I don't need you
 You can finally erase all the memories that you have
 And all the good times you saved
 They mean nothing to me at all
 Bet you bite your tongue
 I never fucking asked for this and you can take it all back with you
 You can face this all alone if it's what you want
 I can't believe I've never seen this as it is
 Are we just a blur?
 You just cut, cut, cut, cut me up 'cause it feels so good
 It's impressively saddening
 And I've seen pain breed
 With all those I've come to need
 I can't keep acting like I'm just a person that doesn't feel defeat
 I compare myself with everything else instead
 It's as pathetic as it feels yet I continue to just embrace
 I forget how to forget as I waste my days
 It's such a fucking nuisance
 And I'm so complacently defenseless to my own hate
 It breaks and it throws away
 It bludgeons the faith encased
 I can't pretend to save what's left if there's anything
 It's all just a fucking shame
 There's only disappointment
 For all those that have doubted entrust in me
 And I fear
 That the blight has engulfed my frame
 Will I steer from the vices that resonate?
 I am far from perfection
 I guess I never gave a fuck
 
 And I won't beggin' to know
 No