Scared of Getting What I Want

I'm so scared of getting what I want
 I'm so scared of seeing where it leads
 I'm so scared of getting what I want
 Scared that it's not really what I need
 I've been in a three day funk
 Under the summer sun, watchin' the palm trees sway
 My mom was asking how I was, but she means
 "How is stuff?" And it's all going great
 And I'm on the rooftop, I'm not gonna jump
 I was joking, today was just too long
 I wrote a new song, but it didn't heal
 Didn't feel half as real as it used to
 I'm so scared of getting what I want
 I'm so scared of seeing where it leads
 I'm so scared of getting what I want
 Scared that it's not really what I need
 Well, I've been in a three day funk
 Or has it been a month? It's kinda hard to say (hard to say)
 I remember 21
 Blew all my money on a trip to see L.A. (see L.A.)
 Now, I'm at the penthouse, friend of a friend's
 So, I guess by extension, we're friends now (by extension, we're friends now)
 Ain't it a let down?
 All of the years to be here just to feel like I'm left out (feel like I'm left out)
 I'm so scared of getting what I want
 I'm so scared of seeing where it leads, oh
 I'm so scared of getting what I want
 Scared that it's not really what I need (scared that it's not really what I need)
 And I'm so scared I'm gonna fuck it up
 Every night I'm sweating through the sheets, oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh
 I'm so scared of getting what I want
 Scared that it's not really what I need
 It's not really what I need
 It's not really what I need
 So, what is it that I need?
 So, what is it that I need?