No One Will Mourn You Here

Decades of isolation
 Trapped in a body and mind overtaken
 By all the shit
 I thought I'd outgrow
 All of the moments that have stained my soul
 The moments where I find
 Texture and definition
 Memories I spent, every day hiding in
 Where do I start?
 Where do I end?
 The line that I blur
 No longer exists
 The prodded pendulum swings without intent
 Anger turned inward
 Finds ways to survive
 Psychosis avoided through averted eyes
 I do not see, so I am blind
 I do not feel, so I am fine
 Joy and peace are wasted on me (wasted on me)
 I shake when I'm awake
 And I shiver in my sleep
 The floor is never too far to fall on
 Hell and my head have a lot in common
 Blood runs cold with fear
 No one will mourn you here
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 My mind is a loaded gun
 And all of its damage can't be undone
 Where do I start, where do I end?
 If this is the entrance, where is the exit?
 Sniveling little fuck up
 Nothing is ever my fault
 Protect my weakness, no matter the cost
 Look at me motherfucker
 Feel me underneath
 Notice me in every nerve
 Giving everyone less than they deserve
 A dormant madness with meat in its teeth
 A swallowed tongue gives way to relief
 Joy and peace are wasted on me (wasted on me)
 I shake when I'm awake
 And I shiver in my sleep
 The floor is never too far to fall on
 Hell and my head have a lot in common
 Blood runs cold with fear
 No one will mourn you here
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 No one will mourn you here