seventeen

You tell me I was just another one of your old patterns
 I guess once again I'm just the fool who thought that I mattered
 I never heard your voice quite like I did just now
 All flat like the drinks on the rooftop we left out
 I wish I was surprised, I wish I could cry
 Just so I could rip apart your t-shirt
 I wish that I could feel, wish somebody didn't already
 Steal all of my emotions
 No, I wouldn't be this numb
 If I was seventeen
 (Ah)
 If I was seventeen
 (Ah)
 If I was seventeen, this would've really hurt me
 But at least back then I could feel things
 You tell me you're doubling sessions 'cause you're such a damn mess
 We both know we had a good thing, fuck what your therapist said
 Don't know what to say, I'm way too used to being let go
 I'm hollow like the bottle of red I finish alone
 If I was seventeen
 (Reckless, young, so free)
 Yeah, if I was seventeen
 (I could love so deep)
 If I was seventeen, this would've really hurt me
 But at least back then I could feel things
 I could feel things
 At seventeen, seventeen
 Seventeen (Ah)
 If I was seventeen, seventeen
 Seventeen (Ah)
 I wanna feel that ache, let my heart break
 But I've built up so many walls, it's too late
 Wish I could get back to believing
 In love without leaving
 When not even fear could hold me back from feeling
 Seventeen, seventeen
 But I'm not seventeen