But It Wasn't

Thought it was on but it wasn't
 She wanted to invest but she didn't have the budget
 I was doubtful, but no regrets for trusted
 Countless wouldn't count the amounts that I've adjusted
 A whole different vocab, spoken though it's clean
 Seeming unfamiliar, awoken from a dream
 Wouldn't even go back, chosen for the team
 The moment might be Kodak but we know what it would mean
 It was; clear as day, now settling in haze
 Searching for a way, this perpetual of maze
 And eventually it fades with lackluster urgency
 As the ground rebuilds with more certainty
 Wounds heal, even 3rd degree
 Forgetting things that made her her to me
 Dissipating back in a swirl of dreams
 Now she's, like the rest of the world I see
 This is life, full of unknowns
 Making our way on the path we chose
 Sometimes smooth, sometimes rugged
 Sometimes nice even though it really wasn't
 This is life, full of unknowns
 Taking our place on the path that we chose
 Sometimes smooth, sometimes rugged
 Thought it was on but it wasn't
 Finishing my purge I was feeling disinfected
 Fresh and introspective so we almost reconnected
 My major fail with females, it left me so dejected
 Looking back at these trails, none were this perfected
 And we still email, like nothing really happened
 Message in my inbox a sentiment collapses
 Featherweight. I know you're great but pray tell
 Try my best to fake well barely on these eggshells
 Moving on was the first of these challenges
 All along falling way below the averages
 You made me what you hated, tipping all my balances
 Well no you weren't the cause, but most certainly the catalyst
 My body wanted out, my mind was full of avarice
 To toughen up my soul I've covered it in callouses
 I took it all in, I took it all in stride
 Held in all inside now I'm emptying the ballastes
 This is life, full of unknowns
 Making our way on the path we chose
 Sometimes smooth, sometimes rugged
 Sometimes nice even though it really wasn't
 This is life, full of unknowns
 Taking our place on the path that we chose
 Sometimes smooth, sometimes rugged
 Thought it was on but it wasn't
 On to the next gen, realized it sober
 Figured out the closure understanding it was over
 Timing's silver lining finding sweet inside the sour
 Supported by a new source powering my hours
 Over me, all this history will tower
 But I'm done with all my fears, there's no time to be a coward
 Last minute tickets as I'm boarding on this Boeing
 Flight to LAX so for certain we were knowing
 Happy to admit it, I knew that I was falling
 Appreciated knowledge, and the things we had in common
 You're so evident, clever quick, attractive
 Planning for your path with a whole barrage of tactics
 Studious with insight, thought we'd be a team
 The perfect blend of qualities, something from a dream
 Visits long distance, I really hadn't tried it
 But it was theoretical, couldn't quite apply it
 This is life, full of unknowns
 Making our way on the path we chose
 Sometimes smooth, sometimes rugged
 Sometimes nice even though it really wasn't
 This is life, full of unknowns
 Taking our place on the path that we chose
 Sometimes smooth, sometimes rugged
 Thought it was on but it wasn't
 Despite how it sounds, I've been feeling down – sacked
 Plenty rebounds, but never bounced back
 Come around? This is after that fact
 Take you back? We've been down that path
 Tell the truth of, I don't see a future
 In any of my past so it's time for me to move up
 That's it? No more need for proof of
 That quick? Not just Saiyan but I'm Super
 Last trip hot seat, no more of this pan fried
 Rest in peace, David, back there is where that man died
 Overwhelmingly it's the truth by a landslide
 Nothing I can do, defeated with my hands tied
 Fake it 'til I make it like a weather storm
 Granted never take it metamorph into a better form
 Learning from mistakes you can measure me
 Nothing is for certain, let's go ahead and see
 This is life, full of unknowns
 Making our way on the path we chose
 Sometimes smooth, sometimes rugged
 Sometimes nice even though it really wasn't
 This is life, full of unknowns
 Taking our place on the path that we chose
 Sometimes smooth, sometimes rugged