Downtime

Picking up from setbacks, once again returning
 A disappointing saga from an optimistic journey
 Resuming out of hibernate, the power got restored
 Building up the bravery to finally hit record
 Hesitant, reluctant, unsure if I can cut it
 Hit a wall and then I stalled thus becoming unproductive
 Plus I wasn't having luck with, really much of anything
 Empty lacking meaning, now reflection getting menacing
 Can't express these issues, what if someone overhears
 Overcoming challenges to understand them clear
 Afraid of facing failure, any move could bring it near
 But this lack of forward motion just solidifies the fear
 System state corrupted but can't revert the snapshot
 A silent silhouette against a solitary backdrop
 Abandoned what I have and just focused on the have-not
 Lock myself away but I'd probably pick the padlock
 Finally unplugged from the storm that I had weathered
 Crumbled under pressure, put the statement on the record
 Lacking any effort, got the madness but no method
 Sad and introspective, feeling ever disconnected
 Now I'm writing past the margin, hardened, charging from the sidelines
 Just invert the five nines, seemed a couple lifetimes
 Labelled AFK inactivity displayed
 Returning to the stage after having been away
 Sick and tired of these single wires, feeling uninspired
 The music's undesired but too young to just retire
 And I'd never walk away from opportunity for higher
 Elevating my community of peers that I admire
 Decoded and I'm cold, an alone defeated rhymer
 Back myself into this corner, need it warmer, seeking fire
 Eroding at my soul to decrypt this weakened cipher
 Coming up from downtime but feeling so expired
 Despite the homecoming, I don't think it's run its course
 This is weakness in a story, not a path to be endorsed
 Even present day with regrets and this remorse
 The fear of failure holding, still imposing quite a force
 Afraid that I would ruin any legacy in music
 Any other reasons said were really just excuses
 Surrounded now in doubt getting blasted with confusion
 Success and being fearless seeming mutually exclusive
 The only path is forward, rarely looking back instead
 Learning from the past, but still focusing ahead
 Distant and withdrawn, felt like hanging by a thread
 But I just couldn't let it go, though, no matter what was said
 Tired of being out of it, clearing out these outages
 Regular expressions 'cause I'm finished with the counterfeits
 Excited for the rise so don't tell me bring it down a bit
 Finished with my downtime, consider this a power trip