Introvection

I've stayed awake
 Through the night
 Until mourning comes
 Is there a shadow watching me
 Sitting in wait for me to sleep?
 There's sickness in my head
 And sickness in my heart
 I know what must be said
 But I don't know where to start
 The voice that plagues my mind is not the only one
 'Cause I still hear you calling out
 For me to wait
 Always the same
 Am I the only one who's desperate for a way out?
 From the lie that's true in time
 From the night that comes alive
 From the feeling that there's no more to
 say, it's my life to pay, cast me astray
 I've stayed awake
 Through the night
 Until mourning comes
 This life is smothering me
 The fire that's inside me wanes and withers
 The impulses that guide me beg for a way out
 The drive that once defined me shakes and shivers
 This lie is all that's left to light this dark surround
 There was fire in your eyes
 A sense of hope and boundless wonder
 And though you were afraid at night
 You knew the mourning sun
 Would bring you home again
 I'd give anything to make amends
 I'd trade you for this life
 I'd give anything to feel afraid
 But instead I'm passing time
 Knowing one day I'll be free again
 Knowing one day I'll mean more than this
 Knowing I've done all I could have done
 I'd turn back time
 To keep you alive
 Your absence still weighs on my mind
 I'd turn back time
 To keep you alive
 This life was not meant for me