Constant Collapse

There's nothing here for me
 But I am here for you so I will never leave
 And I'm starting to believe every time you said you love me
 You were just talking in your sleep
 And I said I would die for you
 But that was before I knew that is all you wanted me to do
 And time and time again I can tell you I hate you
 But that won't ever make it true
 'Cause even during the good times
 When you kissed me I didn't want to open my eyes
 'Cause I didn't want to realize how hollow our love was
 But now that it's over, I'm still here, and all I want to know was love
 And I only talk about you in the past tense
 'Cause through all of this mess it's the only thing that makes sense
 And all I do these days is want but I've settled for wishful thinking
 And neglecting, and justifying my emptiness
 Because it's easier to see what you have when you can see what your neighbor lacks
 I would give an arm and a leg just to have my arm and leg back
 And I worked so hard to help you find truth, just to slowly learn that your silence says
 Just as much about your character as your words do
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 We gave our love away
 I always thought that I would be okay
 I always thought that I would be okay
 I always thought that I would be okay
 I never thought, I never thought I would be okay
 Through this silent note, what constitutes the truth
 'Cause I can tell myself
 Time and time again
 That I'm not making sense of this
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 And that cross around your neck was more hollow than your head
 But I still just wanted to follow you to bed
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 I never listened to my own voice
 Maybe some of us embrace death
 But some of us don't have a choice
 And maybe I'm both because I didn't choose this
 But that doesn't mean I'm going to change
 'Cause I never do, and you never did
 And it scared me away
 And that's why she still cuts your skin for you
 And that's why that she's still in you
 And her name is acceptance
 And she used to kill me, and now she's killing you
 And through all this stress
 And carried-out disastrous distress
 I've learned that I really don't like you
 But I forgive you because I love you
 I love you