Bechdel Test

I've been missing appointments
 And birthdays and sunsets
 I've been watching too many movies
 That do not pass the Bechdel Test
 And that makes me feel like I am a bad feminist
 But I pirate them
 So that makes it better, I guess
 I've been trying to soul search
 And write more and de-stress
 I've been clinging to hope like a guardrail
 Like a life vest
 And I've been asking everyone
 "How long do you think the ache will last?"
 They don't know yet
 Can something be prescribed to me?
 I don't like getting high
 But there's a game of Operation in my skull
 The bittersweet, the apathy
 The backup plans and stolen dreams
 I'm trying to see the genius of it all
 But I've been losing my balance
 My cell phone, and good sleep
 I've been googling the best manifestation techniques
 And I've been taking quizzes based in pop psychology
 And they're always a letdown
 But I've never been easy to please
 I'm steeping in anxiety
 I'm teetering on a tightrope
 And I'm waiting for the moment when I'll fall
 The bittersweet, the apathy
 The backup plans and stolen dreams
 I'm trying to see the genius of it all
 I'm trying to see the genius of it all
 I'm trying to see the genius of it all
 But I've been missing appointments
 And birthdays and sunsets
 I've been watching too many movies