Keeping Score

I was 18, freshly into college
 Kinda missed my family, feeling melancholic
 Things were better than they were in high school
 That place was a first-rate depression cesspool
 There was a lonely ache in my body
 Wanted somebody to hold me just for the night
 Went looking for a heartbreak, looking for a mistake
 But I didn't know it at the time
 That was the autumn I was hoping I could pull you
 God, I really want to
 Nose always in a book
 So I started wearing perfume
 Said you like the smart girls
 Had to up my game
 Studied for my one minute of fame
 But you fed me to the lions
 Can't you hear them roar?
 Sitting in the background
 Keeping score, keeping score
 You knew that boy had said he loved me four days into talking
 And I dropped him because he sent my skin crawling
 Held his life to my throat, wrote me ransom notes
 I couldn't sleep for months
 Thought maybe you'd be different, and I was right
 But not in the way I hoped I might be
 Oh, my avoidance met its match
 And I became attached
 That was the autumn I was trying hard to pull you
 God, I really want to
 Lead 'em on and let 'em down
 Isn't that your full truth?
 Said you like the smart girls
 Let you pick my brain
 Was I at least good for your grades?
 But you fed me to the lions
 Can't you hear them roar?
 Sitting in the background
 Keeping score, keeping score
 I felt cool (I felt cool)
 Under your attention and I guess
 You forgot (You forgot)
 To mention what you were looking for
 Wasn't me (Wasn't me)
 Even though I wanted to be yours
 Completely (Ah)
 Now I'm just keeping score
 Ah, ah ah
 I was 18, freshly into college
 Kinda missed my family, feeling melancholic