I Need Peace (Ptsd)

Please don't hate me girl I know I'm being crazy
 Think before I speak it's a lesson I learn daily
 Still I don't know where to go it's got me picking up my phone
 Dialing 1-800 numbers just so I won't feel alone
 I Need Peace
 For I'm constantly at war
 putting dinner on the table with the demons at the door
 Taking all of the attention and they're begging me for more
 Drop my head while I beg to be left the hell alone
 I Need Peace
 For I don't feel any shame
 No need to wear a mask or to push away the pain
 I'm owning all my sorrows as I'm walking through the rain
 Taking aim at a strain putting numbness in my brain
 Please don't hate me girl I know that I've been crazy
 Please don't hate me girl I know that I've been crazy
 Please don't hate me girl I know that I've been crazy
 Think before I speak it's a lesson I learn daily
 Still I don't know where to go it's got me picking up my phone
 Dialing 1-800 numbers just so I won't feel alone
 I Need Peace
 With no apologies
 A lover of the arts mixed with some astrology
 A thinker, contemplator, yes philosophy
 The world up on my shoulders as I stride and take a knee
 I Need Peace
 There is no end in sight
 I'm sorry that I wake you in the middle of the night
 Kick and toss and turn like I'm running from a fight
 Make it right listen tight and get ready to recite
 Please don't hate me girl I know that I've been crazy
 Please don't hate me girl I know that I've been crazy
 Please don't hate me girl I know that I've been crazy
 Think before I speak it's a lesson I learn daily
 Still I don't know where to go it's got me picking up my phone
 Dialing 1-800 numbers just so I won't feel alone
 I Need Peace
 For the sight is never near
 Two steps forward three back every year
 Talking to Picasso but you people never hear
 Lend an ear lets be clear sit down you can listen hear
 I Need Peace
 For I have none left for me
 I screwed up in my youth and gave it all away for free
 Shrunk on down but I still forgot the key
 Hit the pipe say goodnight and try to understand the plea
 I Need Peace