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I'm sitting by your bed reminiscing counting every second
 You ain't talking but you're lecturing your final lesson
 You struggling to breath is teaching me to count my blessings
 Lesson learned you're taking your last breath and yes its breathing life in my direction
 Once again I'm wheezing singing feeling like my heart is bleeding
 We'd done sung this song before my Lord it's hard just to breath in
 Grieving even tho I know this may be the last time I see him
 Just take him home and set him free and
 I'm looking up to God and I'm trying to make sense
 He's struggling to take his next breath
 And I don't wanna say goodbye yet
 But I don't wanna see him like this
 Dear God I don't wanna see him like this
 I don't wanna see him like this
 I don't wanna see him like this
 I don't wanna see him like this
 I'm looking at your casket asking questions feeling wrecked all inside
 I lean to touch your ice cold body that I do not recognize
 I look at your wife and see your kids loving each other despise
 This is the closest we ever been roped in these family ties
 See one has died and gone on I wish he'd open his eyes
 And see his life and death was used as an instrument to revive
 Our family tree and the broken things that had us stressing inside
 A tragedy or just a blessed disguise
 And now I'm looking up to God and I'm trying to make sense
 He finally done took his last breath
 And I didn't wanna say goodbye yet
 But I don't wanna see him like this
 Dear God I don't wanna see him like this
 I don't wanna see him like this
 I don't wanna see him like this
 I don't wanna see him like this
 To all my family out here suffering asking questions and wondering
 What's the point of this life do we live and die where's my comfort in that
 Well the fact that we can see them again
 But pain free with no disease we even free from the sin
 But in the meantime In between time we'll be weeping for them
 These memories will keep our family's heart beating again
 I went from him to saying them I know because life does change
 Table for two because grandma's on her way
 And now I'm looking up to God and I'm trying to make sense
 Last night she took her last breath
 And I didn't wanna say goodbye yet
 Lord I don't wanna feel like this
 Dear God I don't wanna feel like this
 I don't wanna feel like this
 I don't wanna feel like this
 I don't wanna feel like this
 I don't wanna feel like this
 I don't wanna feel like this