i know you hate me

I've been fighting with thoughts and temptations
 I'm not good at holding conversations
 Bae bear with me, baby, please just be patient
 Want you here, I don't want my bed vacant
 Every night, we been fightin' and fuckin' and lovin'
 I don't know if I hate this shit or love it
 Don't wanna keep goin' but don't wanna cut it
 In a predicament but won't discuss it, no
 You say you love me
 But I know you hate me
 Don't ever wan' face me
 You know what I'm facin'
 I'm not one for chasin'
 You're never explainin'
 I'm gone on the weekends
 I'm off the deep end
 Nothing ever makes sense
 Watch you walk out my life
 And it ain't been the same since
 Put it in the past tense
 I was playing the offense
 But now I'm on defence
 Never said you were the one
 That was crazy
 I should've had better judgement, I was lazy
 Now I sit and recollect while I'm on vacay
 I should've known that you were trouble
 When you made me say
 That I love you so much
 I don't want you to leave
 And that you were the one
 That was pulling my strings
 And then you went and
 Ripped my heart up into pieces
 I never thought it would reach this
 You say you love me
 But I know you hate me
 Don't ever wan' face me
 You know what I'm facin'
 I'm not one for chasin'
 You're never explainin'
 I'm gone on the weekends
 I'm off the deep end
 Nothing ever makes sense
 Watch you walk out my life
 And it ain't been the same since
 Put it in the past tense
 I was playing the offense
 But now I'm on defence
 And once you leave
 There's no comin' back
 I don't wanna see your face
 And on top of that
 I don't want you in my phone
 No, I'm not textin' back
 I know that no matter what you do
 That you'll come running back
 And don't try to backtrack
 On shit that you said
 'Cause to me in my head
 You're already dead
 So I'm gonna let you rest in peace, uh
 Hopefully this will end the misery