Trying

Walk a long road with myself
 No one by my side
 Put out my hand and reach for help
 But nobody saw my signs
 Don't wan' wake up everyday, I been trying
 I put my face inside my hoodies just to stop all my crying
 And I might say that I'm okay but I hope you know that I'm lying
 I might just succumb to my thoughts, I think I'm tired of trying
 In the spotlight and the lights, they best not dim
 I done take so many L's, I think it's time for me to win
 Feelings come out of my brain and start to crawl throughout my skin
 Gotta wipe away my tears because they're falling off my chin, yeah
 I finna never take no L's
 I don't like to talk to randoms so don't hit up on my cell, nah
 You ain't ever seen this side of me, I'm coming out my shell
 If you talk to me you better watch your tone boy do not yell, nah
 Back to the basics, wake up and go to sleep
 Don't know who's my friend, I don't know if they even care for me
 People always ditch me, I wonder when they're gonna leave
 Hood over my head but the wind is blowing all on me
 Sticks and stones may break my bones
 Don't need friends, better off alone
 Leave my side, you can fuck off and go
 Got some snakes in the grass I think I need to mow
 People say they ride or die but then they stab you in your back and leave
 And that's why I don't trust what niggas say, no I can not believe
 And now you know why I keep my circle small 'cause people lie to me
 I finna all watch out for all my brothers, go up finally
 You a bitch boy, I could give less, don't give a fuck
 You was cappin' on the gang so now we gotta come run it
 Shots is gonna fucking shoot at you, yeah, we gon' let it bust
 My bad nigga I'm so sorry didn't mean to cuss, sike
 Walk a long road with myself
 No one by my side
 Put out my hand and reach for help
 But nobody saw my signs
 Don't wan' wake up everyday, I been trying
 I put my face inside my hoodies just to stop all my crying
 And I might say that I'm okay but I hope you know that I'm lying
 I might just succumb to my thoughts, I think I'm tired of trying