Inexplicable

Inexplicably high, inexplicably low
 I think I know what I want but I don't know where to go
 And all the while it seems that I'm living in my dreams
 Not in the now, no, not in the now
 When I was four I raised my finger to a moving car
 It crashed so I assumed I had a superpower
 I didn't raise that finger until I was nine
 When a schoolboy attacked for the 25th time
 Down I went, my index still up
 So convinced that he would just drop
 Powerless to make it stop
 Powerless to make it stop
 Inexplicably high, inexplicably low
 I think I know what I want but I don't know where to go
 And all the while it seems that I'm living in my dreams
 Not in the now, no, not in the now
 At nineteen, I still just about believed in God
 I guess that I was pretty late to shake it off
 Faulty magic whispered to the man who could mend
 I tricked myself in thinking he could cure my best friend
 Two weeks in, his insides gave up
 If drugs can't help, why would words bring him luck?
 Powerless to make it stop
 Powerless to make it stop
 Inexplicably high, inexplicably low
 I think I know what I want but I don't know where to go
 And all the while it seems that I'm living in my dreams
 Not in the now, no, not in the now
 Now my hands are pulling at the donkey's reins
 I feel I've gone the wrong route down a dusty lane
 The grass could have been greener down the first road I took
 I'd give half my happiness just for one look
 My lust to win is eating me up
 The game I can't win up against my own clock
 Powerless to make it stop
 Powerless to make it stop
 Inexplicably high, inexplicably low
 I think I know what I want but I don't know where to go
 And all the while it seems that I'm living in my dreams
 Not in the now, no, not in the now
 Inexplicably high, inexplicably low
 I think I know what I want but I don't know where to go
 And all the while it seems that I'm living in my dreams
 Not in the now, no, not in the now
 Inexplicably high, inexplicably low
 I think I know what I want but I don't know where to go
 And all the while it seems that I'm living in my dreams
 Not in the now, no, not in the now