Trains

Wishing is cold this year in Pyrenean snow
 Or have my nerves been sabotaged and stripped?
 And I can't hear you anymore
 Are you now stone silent, or are my ears clipped?
 And I've been riding trains
 Because I'm so afraid to drive
 I'm whirling lifeless over metal tracks
 Too scared to stay alive
 And what paralysis is worse
 That from the world or from inside?
 And where's the borderline at which the two divide?
 Wishing could be the motion at the window's edge
 Is it owl wings or my eye's mistake?
 If dreams just hold me hostage to electrical codes
 Then how can you enact them when I wake?
 And I've been riding trains
 Because I'm so afraid to drive
 I'm whirling lifeless over metal tracks
 Too scared to stay alive
 And what paralysis is worse
 That from the world or from inside?
 And where's the borderline at which the two divide?
 I chase the trains forever
 Hoping someday they will stop
 I see myself through windows
 And he doesn't care if I catch up
 What destination do I reach
 Somewhere ahead or lifetimes back?
 Oh, either way, there's no escaping from this track
 There's no escaping from this
 Wishing that I were never afraid
 And wishing these rails had never been laid
 And I will be strong and I will be brave
 And I'm right behind you, show me the way
 Inside, I am red but the sky is grey
 And you're right beside me but further away each day
 And I'm still riding trains
 Because I'm so afraid to drive
 I'm whirling lifeless over metal tracks
 Too scared to stay alive
 And what paralysis is worse
 That from the world or from inside?
 And where's the borderline at which the two divide?